I’ve been seeing the #myfavoritemeds tag quite a bit lately & wanted to participate as I believe it’s vital for us to talk about this stuff openly in order to normalize these types of conversations. I take medication in order to help with my depression, my extreme anxiety, OCD and PTSD. (I’ve also been seeing therapists for even longer but that’s another convo for another day.) I grew up watching my sister being put on medication after medication (some helped, some didn’t, some made her a zombie) and so I harbored a deep and bitter resentment towards medications of any kind. And I refused to try anything out at all.
But last year, I hit the absolute bottom of hell. I could barely speak, I could barely move and I was paralyzed with constant fear, panic and desolation. I remember my mom calling me and I wept with the weight of it all. She finally convinced me to see a doctor and at least try something, anything, just to help.
My parents spent days researching then calling around and trying to get me an appointment. Because I couldn’t do it myself, that’s how low I was. But they found someone. Fast forward a bit, I’ve tried a lot of different medications now and some helped, some didn’t. But what they did do was give me just enough hope to keep trying, to keep fighting.
Now, I see a psychiatrist who is so amazing. She has helped destigmatize medication as a whole for me and keeps helping me find what I need, on my terms. She’s completely involved me in the process of my own healing and that’s been pretty empowering.
Currently, I’m taking Seroquel & Valium.
And while I’ll be the first to tell you that these aren’t 100% perfect, they’re damn near close enough right now. I used to have upwards of six panic attacks a day, now I’ve had like three almost this entire year. The medications have been pretty life changing.
I just want you to know that if you’re suffering, if you’re coasting, if you’re doing really damn well right now, I see you. I see you and I love you.
Thanks for letting me share part of my story today. Feel free to share yours below or on your own post 💛 #invisiblepain #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthmatters