Im fighting within myself. Everything im trying to accomplish its not working. I dont want anything handed to me on a platter. I want to earn it. However, im in tears everynight, im drinking, smoking and in tears and frustration i made a hole in my wall... By posting this... You can either go against me or understand my frustration and. How hard im battling within myself.
I just want to find someone for me who will love me, protect me, guide me and be with me my whole life . i need a job badly. Im working so hard yet. Im so far... Why? This isnt fair.
I cant be without my mommy either. Its been 10 yrs since she passed. My mind , my spirit , my hopes and goals... Im fighting and fighting yet, frustration is in my head. The gurudwara is the place where i take a step back, breathe and make friends. But im looking for more than friends. Plz god help me
I want my bestfriend from india back.. I miss him so very much.. I feel lonely and want to hug him and tell him how much i missed him while away. .🙏🙏