I’ll never forget this night.You told me u hated industry shit but it was my friends fashion show & we had plans to hang out so you came anyways. I was always trying to get you out of your shell more,I hated how people painted you...I wanted u to branch out so they could understand u, maybe form their own opinion. I remember u were glad you came. Until someone said something really rude, not sure exactly what but it was enough to make us all feel uncomfortable...every1 but you. You shrugged it off. I realized maybe that’s why u hated industry shit.You had to be fake- smile& shake hands even though you knew everyone in the room felt the way they may have felt about you.
I know exactly how you felt bc you were 1 of the only ones who stood by me when I was in those shoes, even after I had judged you initially. I was so nervous to host rolling loud, I almost stayed home.You called me & offered your security.You didn’t want people to think I was weak, u didn’t want to see me give up.
Even in your darkest days u were somehow always a light for me& so many others.That’s how I know u were special.YOU saved us when you needed saving.You were so young but you swore u had been here before.
Maybe you had, maybe your work here in this lifetime was done.It’s really the only thing I can settle on the makes this feel somewhat ok.
To see the nasty things ppl are saying really breaks my heart.You had darkness to work through but no one deserves to be condemned in this way. It is clear u had plans to use the platform u were given for change.It’s clear that u too, wanted to change.You told us in everything you did, from your music to your posts on social media & recent philanthropic efforts.
I believe in speaking things into existence.Energy is powerful. I know he wanted us to spread light & love so as I scroll & see people mourning I just want us to think about x in our day to day lives, after we type “R.I.P.” Choose to be a positive,kind,caring human beings.If you really want him to Rest In Peace,think twice b4 u type something mean tomorrow. Listen 4 an answer when you ask “how r u?” Practice compassion starting today.
I hope you are in peace now. We love u forever♠