It's kinda hard trying to keep your mind off someone, esp if your work involves a lot of self and quiet time. Yesterday, I tried really hard to keep myself busy, maybe too hard.. Went to the post office, delivered some packages, went grocery shopping, stayed at a cafe, tried to draw, packed and did inventories, gave myself a tarot card reading lol.. for the most part, it felt nice and relaxing. But thoughts of self-doubt still crept through my head. Worries that maybe I'll always end up trying to look for happiness and approval from someone else. I try to remind myself that I've been doing just fine even before meeting certain people, but it's just difficult when those certain people have made a huge impact in my life and how I view things now. Anyways, I guess what I'm trying to do now is heal some wounds and build myself up again. I know it will take some time, but just like tending to a garden, I know it'll be worth it!