Fertility 🌸 *brutally honest post* •
About 1 year ago I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. For years I have known that something wasn’t right with my body. I had symptoms which, when I think back, started very young. I had my first period at 10 (then no more for about 4 years) after tests at the hospital they couldn’t find a reason. For years and years I was on the pill and so it masked not having regular periods - so I didn’t think much of it. Then came the other symptoms. Tiredness, bloating, hunger, weight gain, unwanted hair (yes no one likes to talk about it, but it’s honestly nothing to be ashamed of). •
I put it off for a few years (through embarrassment) then eventually I started to get investigated. I had a scan last year which showed PCOS. My right ovary is quite damaged because of it and my left is also full of cysts but it’s not as bad. •
I haven’t had a period for 7 months. As a woman it’s one of the most bizarre things. Something that is so natural, just doesn’t happen. I have laser hair removal to keep on top of hair growth and I am very strict with my diet and exercise to keep my weight off (I lost 22kg to get myself to a healthy weight). Tomorrow I get some results of more tests back. •
I wanted to talk about the emotional impact of fertility problems. I think it’s something SO MANY of us women and men struggle with. It’s not really talked about enough. I for one have found it emotionally challenging - the uncertainty is hard to deal with. All the appointments, tests and information thrown at you, is sometimes overwhelming. I am lucky to have someone so supportive in my life, someone who is willing to stick it out no matter what this journey will be like. I am lucky that I also have a lot of options to try different meds and IVF too.
So if you’re going through something similar, you’re not alone in this. Talk about it, get help, be honest with how you’re feeling. People who aren’t in situations like this often say things like “just relax and it will happen”. But it is not that easy and that doesn’t help. Because it doesn’t always happen. And when it’s all you want, it really is the biggest deal. 🌸 #wordsofekp