618 days of being a mother of two.
Is it easy? No.
Is it worth it? Yup, every crazy second.
I remember driving home from the hospital in Kampala squished between a grumpy newborn and five year old. Every pothole that we drove over (about 10,000) a surge of pain took over my body thanks to my brand new c-section scar. I made JP pull the car over every 30 minutes to make sure baby girl was in her car seat correctly and to breastfeed her. She was just 4 days new so it all was quite overwhelming and all I could wonder was who let us leave the hospital with this brand new human that had so many needs? I had no idea how we would ever even just make it home alive.
Just when I was thinking this thought, our air conditioning stopped working. Stopped dead in the middle of traffic, grumpy, painfully squished, overwhelmed and now overheating. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
You guys, I lost it. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
We creeped along slowly to the nearest gas station and as soon as we pulled in, I got out of that car and found the nearest tree that offered shade and hopefully a slight breeze. All I could do was try to catch my breath. I thought it was the pain and overheating but truly, I think it was hormones and extreme life changes. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I looked over at my three family members standing outside of our 20 year old Land Cruiser. JP was holding our newest gift in his arms while our oldest treasure stood close by his side. He was already talking to a stranger, asking for help in finding a mechanic.
“I don’t think I can do this” I thought to myself but really, I was talking to God. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
“Yes, you can but you will need to ask for help and you will have to learn to humbly receive.”
Under that shade of a tree at a gas station somewhere between Kampala and Jinja, God gave me hope. Just like my husband, I needed to practice asking for help in my moments of need. I could most definitely (stubbornly) do this on my own but the fact of the matter is, I didn’t have to. People were surrounding us offering to help and thanks to our angel of a tribe, we have not only survived these last 618 days as a family of four but have also thrived.