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Kearsten Holmdale  Seattle // former TV newser now working in public relations // breast cancer slayer // ♥️: books, trivia, music, food, coffee // WSU Pullman alum

Damn, I miss Luther so much. Especially when I hear this song because it always makes me so happy.
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And yes, I like yacht rock stations. 😂 My yacht rock love coexists very happily with my punk rock and hip hop love.
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#luthervandross #rnb #oldschool #classicrnb #80s #1980s #music #smoothgrooves #oldschooljams #gonetoosoon #rip #yachtrock

For @anirossgrubb:
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I’m thinking we just say fuck it and go for this look.
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That’s not too extra. Right? 😂😂
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#fashion #style #hat #liztaylor #elizabethtaylor #fashionfail #jewels #toomuch #wtf

I have a hat like that and a similar scarf. Maybe I’ll channel my inner 1970s Liz Taylor this summer. But without the Chanel, the skin cancer or drunken Richard Burton.
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#summer #style #summerfashion #summerstyle #fashion #floppyhat #scarf #liztaylor #elizabethtaylor #70s #1970s

About last night.
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I was at home watching TV and wanted to take an ibuprofen for a headache. My oncologist has always told me to take my temperature before ibuprofen and I’m glad I did last night. I had a fever of 100.3.
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For someone with a compromised immune system, that’s not good. Off to the ER.
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They took my temperature when I arrived and it was at 101. They put me in a room and started a blood draw. When the ER doc came in a half hour later, my temperature had gone up to 102. In addition to blood, they also did some chest x-rays since I’ve had a cold for the past few weeks.
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Hours later, they told me my tests and x-rays looked good. My temperature was also coming down because of the fluids they were giving me.
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Probably just a viral infection, they said, and my oncologist said the same thing during my appointment today. I’m so glad it wasn’t pneumonia or the flu. Still, scary to have a rising fever in my condition.
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Right now, I’m back in the hospital doing my weekly chemo thing. I feel fine so hopefully last night won’t happen again.
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On the upside, I’m already counting down to the end. This is chemo number six. After this, ten more to go. August 2nd will be my last day.
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#breastcancer #cancer #life #hospital #chemo #chemotherapy #taxol #cancersucks #fuckcancer

Current mood. 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
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#life #breastcancer #cancer #fuckcancer #cancersucks

I’m working on it. Slowly but surely.
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Lately I have been feeling down. I’m tired of feeling tired. I’m tired of forgetting things. I’m tired of having to be so careful about not catching a cold or flu. I’m tired of being broke because of a mountain of hospital bills. I’m tired of not being able to make plans. I’m tired of not sleeping through the night. I’m tired of feeling sad.
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So many people remark that they are amazed at how strong I’m being or that I look good. But the truth is, I feel shitty most of the time. I power through what I can. There’s so much that I don’t share. Not because I don’t feel like I can share, more like I get tired of hearing myself talk about it. Cancer has become my life and it’s boring.
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Unless you’ve been through it, you won’t get it. Sorry, but watching someone else go through it is not the same. It’s VERY different when YOU are the one going through it. Don’t even try to make comparisons.
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Yes, I’m going to keep pushing forward. I have to. I don’t have a husband or boyfriend at home to take care of me. My parents don’t live here and even so, they’re already caring for my brother 24/7 (he was hit by a drunk driver in 1995). Other people I know have busy lives and can’t really drop everything. I’m just being real, okay?
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I have support, yes, but I still can’t fall apart because at home, it’s just me. I have to make sure bills are paid, doctor appointments are scheduled, groceries are brought, gas is in the car. I do. It’s a hell of a balancing act and I know some people would collapse under these circumstances. Some people are not capable on their own. They are lousy in a crisis. Yes, I am strong but I’ll tell you, it’s exhausting. Sometimes life is just that way, though. You play the best game you can with the cards you’re dealt.
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I’m learning to dance in the rain. I’m learning to find my footing. I’m learning be comfortable in this weird new life of mine. Slowly but surely.
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#breastcancer #cancer #life #health #sad #depression #fuckcancer #cancersucks #strength #findingmyway

That thing, that chemo thing.
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The new drug is making me feel a little nauseous. Ugh.
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Tried to incorporate a little red into my look today to help brighten my spirits, and dig my fancy scarf. A gift from the fabulous @agrlwithglasses.
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Filters-a-plenty because the lighting is shit in here.
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#breastcancer #cancer #life #hospital #fuckcancer #cancersucks #chemo #taxol #chemotherapy #chemoselfie #selfie #strength

My summer reading list. Light and airy. I need distraction in my life right now. Something to make me forget about cancer and all of the other crap.
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Starting tomorrow, my chemo schedule will be changing and I’ll be spending a few hours each week at the hospital. Why not kill time with a book? Even better, a book written by a badass, which all of these women are. 🔥💥🥊💪
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I used to read a lot but in recent years, I haven’t taken the time. What a shame. Kicking back with a book is blissful. And don’t even start with me about your damn Kindle. I’m old school. I need to hold an actual book.
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#books #icon #chrissiehynde #thepretenders #erikajayne #rhobh #realhousewivesofbeverlyhills #anjelicahuston #strongwomen #reading #summerbooks #summer #summerreading #life #cancer #breastcancer #fuckcancer #cancersucks

My Birchbox for May:
• [ comfort zone ] Remedy Cream to Oil Ultra Gentle Cleanser
• ARROW ENHANCE Waterproof Eye Brightener
• b.tan it’s love. gradual tan body moisturizer
• Bumble and bumble. Thickening Spray Pre-Styler (I’ll put this away with all of my other hair products for a while, because cancer 😕)
• TokyoMilk Dark Everything & Nothing Eau de Parfum
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#birchbox #samples #subscriptionbox #makeup #hair #skin #pretty #beauty #selfcare #comfortzone #arrowcosmetics #btan #bumbleandbumble #tokyomilkdark

Happy Mother’s Day to my sweet mommy who has always been my biggest cheerleader. Words cannot express how grateful I am to have her. ♥️
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#happymothersday #mothersday #mom #family #life #goodtimes #mother #love

Fife is the only Pick-Quick location that matters. The others are just sad wannabes.
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#saturday #driveins #fastfood #weekend #burgers #fries #shakes #milkshake #fife #fifewa #oldschool #icon

Sunshine, salt water and oysters at Hood Canal. A perfect way to spend a Saturday. ☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️
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Aside from work and the hospital, I haven’t been out much since I started treatment in March. I needed the change of scenery.
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#belfair #hoodcanal #kitsappeninsula #saturday #pugetsound #weekend #sunshine #life #chill #beach

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