vajayla vajayla

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  Cats😽 Punk Rock🎢NeedlesπŸ’‰ Poetryβœ’SLC🐝INFPπŸ™Sag ♐ "I remember awakening one morning and finding everything smeared with the color of forgotten love"

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Up and at 'em. Vegas in T-48 hours! #punkrockbowling #woohoo #nomakeup

I loved you more than any other chosen person in my life.
I still do.
I still miss so many pieces of you

Sometimes I hear or see something that only you would get.
And I hear your voice echoing in my mind.
I hear your laugh next to me.
It is almost like you are here again.
And all the terrible things you did never happened.
Other times I feel lonely because I know there are aspects of this life, of this world that only you and I could ever remember and find special.
There are so many generic things in this world.
Repeats and reproductions.
But you are not one of them, not even close.

You are more special and beautiful to me than words can ever describe.
Trust me, I have tried over and over again for close to a decade.
My only wish after all this time, is that you could somehow see what I could.

Oh how I tried for all these years to give you what will take a lifetime to discover.
I wanted it now and that was selfish of me.
I know that.
But still, I miss you.
I wish everyday that we could have been, should have been...but I am slowly letting that go because I have to for my own sanity.

Please know that when I sit alone at night, wrapped in a blanket or looking up at the stars on a warm summer night that I remember you.

Not the ugly.
Not the lies.
Not the addictions.

I remember the soul I fell in love with.
That person exists.
The goodness you fear and the struggles you tried to hide.
I remember your excitement and your eyes and your pain.
I remember that I loved you purely.
Everyday since the beginning of time and into our next lives, a piece of me will always be waiting for you.
I will love you always, even when I know I must do it from afar.

#writeitout #jrjpoetry #foryou #poem #writing #latenightwrites

Everyday. #onlymovingup

Freak. *
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I do not say this lightly. There are those that think so but still have flocks. Then there are those that ARE. Its clear to us. Its clear to me. And I recognize you as I recognize myself. We spend much of our time alone. We spent years in silence because of the torture of our peers and even as adults we know we still do not fit. We go to work, to the store, we smile and laugh but we know deep down we have never belonged. We are the undesirable. We are the loners. The misfits.
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Weirdo. Freak. Nerd. Crazy. Those are the words that have been said to me over and over again my entire life. And it seems the more time I spend around others consistently, I can still see that these words are true about me. I don't fucking fit anywhere. But I am learning to be okay with that. #reclaimyourself #freak #ftw

Dead. So fucking dead! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ thanks @iconoclad for giving me great deals on clothes and laughs.

Sleepy kitties 😊😽#pussydoodles #misterhaze

When you feel like shit, dressing in crazy pants helps. And Nyquil. And soup. So over this....As long as I am good by next weekend for Vegas!!! Anyone else going to #punkrockbowling ???

True love πŸ’œ #pussydoodles #mylove #kittyhugs

Not feeling well today mentally or physically. If you have it in I could use some encouragement, positivity, prayers or what have you. 😞

I have decided there is no one for me

No,
I have waited patiently
I have searched
I have passed
I have taken time

These souls run through me
A mage to cast his spells--
A knight to ride and save me

But you see
I am the beast they run from
Or to try and slay

I am not content to be your little woman
Or a slave

I am the Queen of my own Kingdom
And I watch the world at play

I do not have time for your numbness
Or your hesitation

I will take the battle my own way

#ftw #lookintomyeyes #jrjpoetry #queen #poetry #nofilter

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