Racing is hardly ever just about the race. @amtetrick #Repost
This happened. It had been a year since I last rode a TT bike, but I was going to be @usacycling #PROnats for a BOD meeting. I asked Grampy what I should do. He preferred more preparation and focus, but also thought, what do you have to lose. He said although I didn’t specifically train for the event, I might just surprise myself. I was strong but probably wasn’t as fast as I wanted. But, each time I ride a bike, I get smarter, I have more experience, and I learn. He said apply what I learned at @dirtykanza this year to the TT. I said 206 miles is a little different than 23 kilometers. He said, a race is a race. Any opportunity you have to pin a number on, do it. I borrowed a bike, rode it once and decided I was going to ride my bike that day anyway so what the hell. He passed away the evening before the start. I already had my ticket booked to Colorado and he scolded me when I asked if I should skip the meetings. He said, don’t you worry about me, Ali. You need to take care of yourself and do your job. I will be here. My heart rate was 145bpm on the start ramp. I shook. I cried. I scared my holder. He asked if it was my first nationals. I chuckled. No, it’s my 9th. Then why are you so nervous. This isn’t nerves. But. Nevermind. My Grampy said he would be there when I finished and he wasn’t going to be there. Started the race, I started talking to him. Writing a book about all the things he taught me. I cried. I kept riding. No, I didn’t surprise myself with a result that day, but I surprised myself by finishing. I wanted to curl up in a ditch out there and cry my heart out. He would not have liked that. He wanted me exactly where I was. I was surrounded by my bike family and @jtetrick and most didn’t know what was going on with us but they still offered support, hugs, and friendship. Grampy would have been jealous of my fast equipment and would want to ask all the questions on my fancy skinsuit, gearing, wheels, and why did I forget my aero gloves. When I went out too hard to feel pain, he would have said, you know better than that. Be patient. Let the race come to you. Don’t chase it. Build it.