-Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer-
-Had a very shiny nose-
I was trying to avoid posting anything, because usually my posts are melancholic.
So this one might be longer than most.
For the past 3 years, I have spent the holidays alone.
At one point I had imagined that's what I wanted or needed.
I don't typically celebrate Thanksgiving, Xmas, New Year's.
It's filled with a lot of pain for me. I tend to have emotional breakdowns.
They've gotten worse over the years.
Nobody likes a Debbie Downer so that's probably why I am always alone.
I just hope while everyone is celebrating today with their friends and family, please take a moment to think about and contact that one friend or family member who suffers from mental illness.
Even if they decided to be alone this season.
You have no idea how many people I just shut myself off from, not because they weren't good enough to my life, but because I felt I wasn't good enough in theirs.
I wish everyone a Happy Holidays.
Hang in there loves 💜