I just got back from being in the bush for a week and in all honesty it feels kind of numbing to be home again. You hear it so much that there is healing in the land and I've always preached and respected that but I never fully understood it, not until this week. Not until I woke up to an elder making coffee before the sun rises and when the golden rays hit my face when it finally does. Until I spent the entire day sewing by the fire with hot coco or tea because the weather was too violent to go outside. Until I finished sewing all day long with my hands and fingers still sore but starting another project regardless. Until I sat all day long with an elder exchanging stories, laughs, silence and even tears. Until a moose was brought back and the fish net was full. Until I really witnessed the hard work it takes both mentally and physically to live in the bush. Until I laid in my sleeping bag at night with nothing but the wind and fire crackling around me. Until the things I often don't realize I'm still struggling with gently tap me on the shoulder and ask to sit with me because I now finally have the space and time to greet them, understand them better and if I'm patient - let them go. I've gone to the bush so many times before, both leisurely and to learn, but not like this. This time was different, and I believe that is because I am now different. The land and that way of life has never changed, it is me who has. I can't even begin to tell you what this journey was like for me, I'm sure most won't understand but I can share with you some of my inner thoughts and a photo of the last sunset I got to witness while at Lake Wopasite. I hope in sharing this you remember who you are and where you come from. I have the deepest and utmost respect for our old ways and I hope to be able to learn them from my elders as much as I can so that I can pass them on to my own children some day. Living off the land was not just survival, it was a way of life. A deeply rich and gratifying way of life. My spirit understands this, and now my mind and body begin to follow. I have so much yet to learn, and it will probably last a lifetime, a lifetime I'm hopeful to live.