Thoughts on feeling stuck.
Whenever I’ve been at a place in my life where I felt like I wanted more, or was meant to do more, but couldn’t…because I was “stuck” in a job I didn’t love, or ANY circumstance that I couldn’t just snap my fingers and change, the discouragement was legitimately crippling. It felt like I was suffocating. Like I thought MAYBE I could be approaching some sort of finish line only to turn a corner and realize there was no end in sight. Like my head was being held underwater and I had no idea when (if ever) I’d be able to breathe again. Stuck.
After a series of failures, rock bottoms, “no end in sight”s, I wondered if my perspective was the thing that needed changing, and not so much my circumstances. Maybe even though it felt like my head was still under water, there WAS a way to breathe…maybe even though the finish line wasn’t visible, I could be alive for the rest of the race and stop waiting until the end. More practically speaking, I wondered if in the jobs I didn’t love, or the circumstances I couldn’t change…maybe I COULD hold joy, be present for each moment, STOP WAITING, and stop wallowing in discontentment. So the big question was this…what was something I could do immediately, without my circumstance changing? Something that gave me life? I knew that to *love* and to *create* were the roots of everything I was passionate about, the roots of all my BIG dreams that I felt like I had to wait an eternity to accomplish…but if I simplified it, as long as there was a human being in my path, I could love. And as long as there was an opportunity to create something (whether it paid my bills or not), I could live my dream. These things were immediately available to me, in my less-than-ideal jobs and circumstances, even in tragedy. I didn’t have to earn access to them, cross a finish line to get to them, or wait for fresh air to breathe them in. They were ready for me whenever I was willing to make the shift in my heart.
If you saw Moana when it was in theaters, you’ve seen the Pixar short “Inner Workings”. THIS. 😭❤️ (I need to find the full clip!) ✨ And please let’s discuss this whole idea! I’d love to hear your hearts! 💛🌾 #whywelove