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Anxiety Ruled My Life  I know what it's like to suffer. 415 day(s) clean. I want to help! Ily! ❤️

Hey y'all!!! I've never posted a picture of myself on this profile before because I wanted to keep it anonymous but today I am celebrating being 100 days clean from cutting and self harm and I am so incredibly proud of myself!!! So yea this is me I'm maddy and my profile is no longer anon 😊 I will still be posting here and if u ever need someone to talk to I am always here for u I love you.😘 feel free to follow my personal account @mebemaddy strong and make 100 days count!!!!!! #anxiety #anxious #cutting #depressed #depressed #selfharm #suicide #suicidal #staystrong #iloveyou

Hey everyone so I've been gone for a while getting help and now I'm close to reaching 100 days clean!! I'm super excited for it and I just wanted to show u guys my #savedbythebandsproject. All these lyrics saved me from cutting, binging, throwing up, and just all around trying to kill myself. I have confidence that I would not be here without these bands and the things they do and say. I love you!!! Stay strong!! Message me whenever if you need it. I'm always willing to talk! #thestorysofar #clairvoyant #littlemix #salute #sleepingwithsirens #freenow #woeisme #fameoverdemise #christinaagulara #beautiful #alltimelow #stayawake #thekillers #mrbrightside #maydayparade #saveyourheart #therapy #weekendworship #bethecenter #karikimmel #whereyoubelong #relientk #bemyescape #fifthharmony #missmovinon #issues #theworstofthem #neverlooseyourflames

New update on my life since the last time I told you all my story here goes: well since about a year ago I've gotten better I actually have. At one point (over the summer) I was at my highest I was so happy all I wanted to do was help everyone 24/7. Then I was molested a couple times by my boyfriend of about a couple years who I completely adored so in spite of that I told myself I wanted it to happen and that it was ok and I was fine, but then my anxiety levels exploded. I started cutting and binging again. I swallowed a bunch of pills twice just in these past couple months and no one knows except a really close friend. I have to see my ex who molested me everyday at school and over the weekend at church and youth group so I basically have a panic attack every time I leave my house. The first time I tried to end my life I was dating this new guy who was just on all ends perfect for me. He treated me with such respect and we connected on every level. But as our relationship progressed he started to expect me to do things with him I wasn't ready for so we broke up and it's been extremely hard on me. I'm struggling big time rn and I would really rather just be dead. I counted 108 scars on my body last night and I'm not well. I started talking to a school counselor about a bit of this and it's been helping but not I'm the way it needs to. If u have any advice or anything it would be much appreciated. I just need a reason not to kill myself. If u took the time to read this thank you so much ily and stay strong keep fighting!! 😘 #mystory #suicide #selfharm #anxiety

You've got scars on your body and your soul bruises on your back now. Broken hearts no where to go. #alone #anxiety #anxious #bands #binge #blithe #cutting #depressed #depression #eatingdisorder #falling #hell #help #heartbroken #killme #love #loveme #music #purge #suicide #selfharm #suicidal

It's getting so bad.... I starting bring razors to school and taking pills when I didn't need them..... #anxiety #anxious #blithe #bands #cutting #depressed #depression #falling #hell #help #loveme #love #music #eatingdisorder #binge #purge #alone #heartbroken #selfharm #suicide #suicidal

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