I've been struggling lately. A combination of stress, grief, physical and emotional exhaustion, lack of nature time, and lack of creative output has clogged up my energy. There has been a giant crapload of figurative and literal clutter surrounding me, following me, driving bolts of anxiety into my mind and making me feel ugly inside. "Evil Amanda" has been hanging around, and some days I haven't been able to shove her under the bed. But this morning, I woke up and saw the sun rising, clearing out rain clouds. Joel and I accepted a rental agreement for our first home together. I weighed myself and I FINALLY made it below 180 pounds. On Wednesdays yoga class, I successfully completed a transition from crow, to headstand, back down to crow, and I went further in camel pose than I've ever been able to. Good things are happening, and I am dissolving the clutter in my brain. Today is great. Tomorrow will be even better!