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First I think that we should touch up on the aspect of respecting her decision, maybe after talking to her parents she realized that she wasn't ready to be in a relationship, and by contacting her you are only making it more difficult for both of you and herself.
It's completely understandable that you are upset about not being able to have complete closure in the relationship. But you can still come to a closure within yourself, knowing that it is over and that there's nothing that you can do to make the situation better and to allow yourself to let go of the intense yearning for contact. Everybody feels hurt after a breakup, the question is where you put that energy.
You were asking who you should turn to, and during times of struggle and self-discovery, the best thing you can do for yourself is turn to G-d. And I know that this past Shabbos you made a mistake, and it is very easy to tell from the text that you regret it. But instead of turning away from religion and rebelling against G-d, turn to Him for help and guidance. The world isn't against you. When G-d sees that you are trying, He gives you a leg up. You just need to show you care.
And ultimately, you will be okay. .
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