Can I get real for a second? Can I just take a moment to cut through the fog of the “highlight reels” of instagram? I’m hurting right now, you guys. More than I ever imagined it was possible to hurt. I feel a gaping hole every second of every day in my chest that’s infected with grief over the absence of my dad & watching my family reel from that same pain makes the sting all the more potent. I would literally give ANYTHING to live this night over again. Seriously, literally. For all eight of us to be there together... laughing to tears, working together, singing at the top of our lungs in victory after we “escaped”. The only things I’d change? I’d hug my dad so much more often, so much tighter. I’d listen more intently to his voice. I’d hold his hand. I’d tell him I love him & praise how brilliant he was at solving those darn puzzles. I think something that hurts the most is that we didn’t even realize in the moment this video was taken, just how good we had it... I mean, we knew but we didn’t really KNOW, ya know? All that said, I’m so grateful for the documentation of this specific night & so much more grateful to still have the family that I do. One thing I know is- I’m going to hug them more often & more tightly. I’m going to listen more intently to their voices. I’m going to hold their hands. I’m going to tell them I love them & praise their brilliance in the big & small endeavors of their lives. I am going to purposefully remind myself- KNOW how good we still have it. Even in his passing, my sweet father is still teaching me how to live better & be better. He’s never truly gone, because his life, lessons, & influence echoes all around & inside of us. So, this is just a reminder to hold the ones you love close & allow yourself to deeply experience every single second you have with them. There is nothing in the universe more important than that.