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Sydney M-W ✨  BALLERINA ⚡️TRIPLE THREAT⚡️ Wife • Catholic • I Cor15:58 📣 #MentalHealthWarrior 📣 ✊🏽BLACK GIRLS ROCK 🇺🇸🇧🇩 🇵🇰 BOOKING: paige@resoluteartistsagency.com

I waited for you and God delivered. Every morning when you pull me close, all those years of believing I was unloveable and broken disappear. There’s no occasion. I just love you. #blacklove #lgbt

I stand by this video, lol. Needing medicine for your mental health is NOTHING to be ashamed about ❤️ tomorrow I have class, a callback, physical therapy, work, and responsibilities at home - and with coping skills and medication I’ll be able to handle it all. Prayer solves a lot of things, and God is always able...that’s why he gave people the gift and vocation of healing and of scientific discovery. Medication is not the only solution, but it’s one that works for me. #breakthestigma #mentalhealthwarrior #takeyourmeds #noshame #ballerina #ontheLEG

If i look closely i can see each of my grandparents in my face. Mixed kids, you don’t have to quantify yourself. You are 100% of everything that makes you up, and you don’t have to slice yourself into percentages to be legitimate. Don’t give in to the pressure to “half” and “quarter” yourself and feel like you have to prove yourself to anyone. Assimilation is a bitch and can separate us from what’s in our blood. Anyway...nobody asked for a selfie but here y’all go. #mixedchicks #blasian #curlygirl #proud #blackgirlmagic

always training, always improving, always learning...and striving to forgive myself along the way for not being perfect. Our culture in the dance world can be so toxic - cutthroat, perfection-oriented, cruel, body-shaming - but it doesn’t have to be. I am really trying to find the balance between always searching for and working towards perfect technique and remembering why I use the technique in the first place - to dance. To really dance. #ballerina #bosuballworkout #wotd

Happy National #ComingOutDay, y’all. We’re proud. We hope you are too. #loveislove #thankful #lgbt

#WorldMentalHealthDay • there’s a lot on my heart, but I’ll try to keep it short: I’ll be 26 next month. I didn’t think I’d live this long. Speaking out about my mental health has landed me in magazines, has earned me the privilege of people coming up to me on the street and telling me that I’ve made an impact on them. I never dreamt this. I never imagined that baring what was a shameful, painful, heavy reality could create the community it has. I’m blown away. If you’re struggling, you’re not alone. I’m here in the trenches with you, taking my meds, working on my coping skills, patching up my heart, live all of these moments that I NEVER thought I’d live to see. I’m glad we’re doing it together. #mentalhealthwarrior #ballerina #blackgirlmagic

F I V E // Y E A R S

On October 5, 2013, I melted into those brown eyes and that smile for the very first time. On this day, 5 years ago, Elena and I met when we locked eyes across a crowded room at a queer poetry slam in our hometown, Washington, DC.
It’s not technically our anniversary (I asked her to be mine 32 days later...), but we’re extra and we like to celebrate the little things too. Within two weeks, we each knew that we were in love.
The rest, as they say, is Black History.

More auditions, more rejection. More struggling to look in the mirror each day. More getting up and trying again. More going to class even though I’m feeling the body dysmorphia hard these days. More praying through each and every moment. More relying on the mercy of God and strength of my ancestors. More trying. More trying. More trying. #auditionseason #failbetter #dancer #triplethreat #ballerina #dreamer #bulimiasurvivor #mentalhealthwarrior

I’m like this year round, late nights, weekends, and holidays, but yes #homebody #anxiety #gottalaughaboutit

right now I’m in “stay-ready-so-you-ain’t-gotta-get-ready” mode which means just lots of training and preparing for the audition season ahead. These last few years have been HARD. Mental illness kept me out of the game for a FULL CALENDAR YEAR in 2015-2016, Y’ALL. Before I got therapy and medicine I was curled@up on my couch crying every single day. I had to fight hard to get back, had a few false starts, more disappointments than I can count...but looking back on old videos no longer makes me bitter or angry...it reawakens in me the deep love I have for being ON STAGE, for learning choreography, for performing, for learning...and I trust that the God who gave me this gift will see it through to fruition...choreo in this video comes from many wonderful folks: @richardjhinds, #KevinWynn, as well as (I believe) Diane Coburn Bruning and Debra Fernandez. #ballerina #dancer #triplethreat #grindseason #auditionseason #mentalhealthwarrior

A fellow #HoltonGirl becomes a hero. We are with you, Dr. Blasey Ford! #blueandwhiteforaye #believewomen

Straight Christians are wild. Will bend over backwards to police the sex lives of consenting LGBTQ adults, but will just bend over on their own morals for abusers 🙃🤔 the Jesus I know would have some questions as to how that all adds up. What would have become of us all if someone told the Blessed Virgin she was lying? #stopkavanaugh #believewomen #mothermaryprayforus

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