I am such a huge believer in taking it day by day... in being courageous enough to try again every morning.
I believe that I have been broken and shattered and it has made me appreciate the growth, the change, and lessons in being present.
I have had this quote posted on my computer for the past year, and it reminds me to let go of the past, of the person I was before I had to say goodbye to Nikki.
So now I am here, present in this moment and appreciative of the new life that I have built from the shattered pieces. “And this is what I learned: You can be shattered and then you can put yourself back together piece by piece. But what can happen over time is this: You wake up one day and realize that you have put yourself back together completely differently. That you are whole, finally, and strong – but you are now a different shape, a different size. This sort of change — the change that occurs when you sit inside your own pain — it’s revolutionary. When you let yourself die, there is suddenly one day: new life. You are Different. New. And no matter how hard you try, you simply cannot fit into your old life anymore. You are like a snake trying to fit into old, dead skin, or a butterfly trying to crawl back into the cocoon, or new wine trying to pour itself back into an old wineskin. This new you is equal parts undeniable and terrifying. Because you just do not fit. And suddenly you know that. And you have become a woman who doesn’t ignore her knowing. Who doesn’t pretend she doesn’t know. And because you never promised yourself an easy life, but you did promise yourself a true one.” -Glendon Doyle Melton