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Kristin✨  "There is hope, even when your brain tells you there isn't." || @kristinbreit Talking about imbalanced chemicals & documenting my progress.

The only thing my meds do is make me feel slightly less tired, but lately they've been making me feel SUPER anxious. I've been taking them on and off for a while (pls don't be like me😅) and I've noticed that when I'm on them my anxiety increases and I have the tendency to dissociate. Essentially, my meds are currently doing more harm than good. Hoping to get on something else over the next few weeks, fingers crossedddd

Current goal: learn to say "no". I started seeing a therapist about a month ago, and since then I've realized a bit more clearly how deep some of my issues are and what I really need to work on. One of my biggest flaws that I never knew existed within me is that I'm too compliant. I have a fear of disappointing and/or angering others, so I'll compromise for their sake. I'll nod my head and go with the flow when all I want to do is swim against the current. I don't know how to say no, I don't know how to be selfish, I don't know how to stand up for myself, and those are all things I plan to change no matter how hard it might be💙

Kicking this off with an all-time favourite quote of mine by Graeme Fife. Y'know, I've had people ask me about the meaning of the whole tearsofsaturn username. To be honest, it just popped into my head several years ago and I thought it sounded poetic so I rolled with it. Over the past bit it's taken on far more meaning to me, and I realized it represents a part of me. I love stars and space and astronomy (Saturn is in fact my favourite planet) and I have so much admiration for the universe. I also shed tears. Crazy, right? I'm still learning to accept that I am a very emotional and empathetic person. I used to try to conceal my feelings but I've grown to realize that there's honestly no shame in crying. We've all done it. We've all been sad or angry or laughing so hard that a tear or two slipped out. It's a representation of emotion, a totally natural thing. Long story short, I express a lot of emotions and I like space✨

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