With an IV in my arm and while going through so much, I realized something: You can't put a filter on reality.
Remember hearing about the vows "in sickness and in health"? I don't think those are important for just marriage. What about for friendships? They should make those vows too because many times, most are only there for the healthy part. But when things go downhill on the sickness part, they run, or see it as something they can't help with, or don't want to deal with.
And that is the saddest part.
The physical pain gets worse when you feel isolated and alone. You feel like a burden to others.
My point is, we are all guilty of living an almost-second life through edited pictures and limitless filters on various media platforms. Those are what get likes. Not posts that show the real, un-glamorized version of yourself or regular life. But at the end of the day, you can't put a filter on what's really happening in your life. Whatever it may be. And you'll never know if it's your last chance to be a real person by taking a chance with a post or with what you truly want to say or share.
I don't care if this post goes anywhere. It's what I felt I needed to say, as I don't care anymore about things that don't truly matter or have genuine meaning to me. Although this illness has caused me suffering, it has opened my eyes to what is really important in life.