I don’t want to be fake and saying that I’m okay bcs it’s not. I’m hurting and I feel hollow. This is too much for me. I remember he said he likes a girl with long hair and today my eyes go blurry, watching my hairs fell after I said “cut it short”, and the reason behind it. I know his reason to act this way just bcs he doesn’t want me to feel betrayed if somehow sooner or later I found out through another party. It’s a bold move he did there, long consideration and whatnot, and he thought this way is the best choice he had. However, it doesn’t less the pain I’m feeling. Regardless it’s real or not, I want him to be happy. I’m not going to say, “I’m so happy for him” bcs in fact, I’m broken. And I’m still trying to understand the silver lining of all this whole thing is that he does really care to be this far, for me to know his special someone means he trusts. You’re the manliest guy I’ve ever known. Man up and be fearless to show your own happiness. I’ll still love you, that’s all I’m going to say.