Good morning dear ones.
Do you know that?
When you spent a lot of time on your own
To clear your mind
To come to new strength
That you realize even more
How powerful the company of a loved person is
How much warmth there can be in someones hand
How safe it feels, how safe you suddenly feel. ...and then sometimes also, how hurting it can be...how ill you feel in certain relationships...my illness then finally set an end to these contacts... On my journey I am lucky to feel that way (like on the image) now with a few of people that had the courage to go with me. I did not always apreciate to have someone around me. I never could name why some person made me angry why I made that happen to me, it all happened subconciously somehow. My illness tought my now why. In fact, it was and it is still difficult for me on some days to decide if I rather spend them alone or not because healing myself and then healing also relationships can be a lot on one day. Healing in my relationships only takes place with the ones who are open to it, who started to see their life as a journey too. There are times when we fall back in old patterns. But we move on as we realize that it happened. We move on because we feel each other more truely now. Sometimes we get overwhelmed too that time is running too fast and that we feel lost. But then we are back again in the beauty of a moment with all what we already were blessed to experience. And luckyly there is more than one day. There is time.