Today I really lost my temper. It's been a while since it last happened and to be honest it scared me. Just when I think I'm starting to master the art of being unflappable, something materialises to test the ego. A conversation with a booking agent became heated and I could literally feel the anger rising. And now, in the aftermath, I feel disappointed in myself. Why did I let it bother me? What made me raise my voice back? And I start judging myself and questioning my worth as a person.
But this is what I practice for isn't it? Not to force myself into bendy shapes but to try and to fall and be ok with the falling. To accept that I'm not perfect and yes ... I fuck up.
Often there is no need to make excuses, to try to justify an outburst. Just the grace to notice when I injure myself or others so that I can own my part and say 'I'm sorry' without expecting anything in return. To understand that I can only control my actions, and not the actions of others.
Bit by bit, day by day, through these challenges, we can choose to learn what it is to live in peace and harmony with others and ourselves.
And therein lies the real practice of yoga. Awareness, Acceptance, Learning, Growth 💟 #peace