I am fiercely protective of my children . You guys are like " thank you captain obvious !!" But , last night I was reminded of just how passionately devoted I am to my three tiny humans.
I answer emails on Sunday evenings. Or in the case of this particular email I'm going to tell you about , I digest them.
I received an email from someone last night listing all the reasons I'm harming my children. How I am abusive by including them in my photos , blogs, and videos. The list went on and on , not worth repeated the hate vibes for the universe .
The point being this email triggered me , but not in way you might think.
And if you are the individual who wrote me that email and you're reading this. I love you.
This email triggered my many deep , sad , and aggressive memories and feelings attached to my own mother.
Who was for all intensive purposes abusive in every way a human could be to another human . She physically starved me for days on end. She beat me, and would find secret ways to physically hurt me that my clothes would cover so people wouldn't ask questions .She would verbally list to me daily how she wished I were dead and that I wasn't worth the gum on the bottom of her shoes.
So what did I do with this trigger filled moment , I journaled it away. And after I came back up for that proverbial breathe of air between tears , I went and watched me children sleep.
I was reminded why I strive to move through kindness in every part of my life.
Because , the abuse stops with me .
Because I have the gift of laying my head down every night knowing I did everything I could for my tiny humans, and moved with love in my soul.
Because whoever you are who wrote to me ,
I love you and I am sending you so much strength right now . My hopes are that you find healing . The kind of healing I found many years ago in my children. The kind of healing that changes the world . 💕
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