I started working in the fifth grade—babysitting gigs and paper routes—and was working two jobs—Manager and Head of Training at a fast food chain and Office Manager at a small chiropractic clinic—by the time I was 16. In college, I was on a music scholarship and also worked for the Music department, the German department, the Writing Center and as an International Peer Coach and Resident Assistant while also volunteering as the VP of the International Student Association and a member of the Finance Board. When I got my first post-college, full time job at OSU, I also took graduate classes and worked on the weekends at a bakery.
By the time I started my own business and small family, working every free moment of my life was the norm. When I became a single mom with a two year old and eight week old and started a second school, I decided I just needed to adapt to less sleep because that meant I could get more done.
And I want to say that I’ve lived my whole life (and I’ve certainly enjoyed it!!!) but at a certain point, it felt more like Serving For My Whole Life, and I started to wonder about more.
Taking steps away from working all the time has been extremely difficult for me, and while I won’t go into all of the paradigms I’ve shed and am in process of shedding, I will share a note I wrote to myself:
HEY YOU! Get quiet!!! That’s where the stuff is!!! It’s ok. It’s ok if it doesn’t feel ok. I promise. Even if it’s just two minutes. No, obsessing over that or figuring out what else needs to be done doesn’t count! Go ahead. You can do it. Remember: You matter, too.