After my first heartbreak as a kid I closed my heart and thought I’d never let someone have that much power over my emotions again. Because of that I closed myself to true intimacy by always holding back my full acceptance that I needed a companion and help. I thought if I could need no one and only depend on myself I’d be safer and stronger. I see now how flawed this thinking was. The deepest intimacy comes from fully accepting that I need my wife to be my full self, my best self. I see now that to be my strongest, I must depend on others and especially her to help me see my weaknesses so that I may work on them. I love and cherish my wife more than ever because I see how much I need her. I can lie and fool myself all day long when no one’s around and there’s no one to be accountable to, but when I am faced with her perfect love everyday; I have to look at myself honestly and see my shadow, see my aversions. And it is only when I finally see it, admit, and humble myself that I can be my full strength and feel my full love. Because then I’m finally not repressing anything, I’m not propping myself up with pride and avoiding my darkness that I don’t want to look at. My wife is my greatest teacher, my own embodiment of Divine’s love for me in the form of a constant companion. I couldn’t fulfill my highest dreams of life without her and so I will cherish and give gratitude to her everyday of my life in devotion and praise. She is my heart, my strength, my love, my wisdom, my power, my foundation. She is my everything.