I know she's been dominating my feed lately. I promise you I adore my other children too. 😂 The thing is, with all the milestones she's been reaching lately, all the "firsts" she's experiencing — first year of dance, turning five, graduating preschool next week — as a mother, these are my "lasts". The last baby to turn 5. The last baby to walk through preschool doors. This is it. And I've never been so aware of the passing of time as a beautiful and wretched and completely un-restrainable thing. I'd been in the thick of babies and toddlers for years and now, ever so sneaky and suddenly, I am not.
And with this realization, I find myself savoring like never before. I know I know, we overuse this word — SAVOR — but really, guys. DO IT. Drink it all up. Love it. This is real life, the beauty and the joy, just as much as the mess and the laundry and the sleepless nights are. It's all #reallife. Don't be afraid to share how much you enjoy moments too. Yes we need to know we're not alone in the days that suck. But we also need to share the good. The good stuff reminds us we can endure the hard.
So this is me. In the midst of a difficult and lonely season in my life, kissing my daughter, choosing to relish the beautiful stuff. Like my baby growing up. It makes me cry, it makes me smile, it makes me ache, it makes me FEEL. And feeling is good.