Vulnerable moment peeps: I've felt for a while like I wanted to share something that I was quietly struggling with a few months ago and finally sat down to write out a piece of my heart. Today I'm sharing the raw and unfiltered story of deciding to walk away from my pursuit of a masters degree and teaching, and the need to appear successful in the eyes of others. Snippets below and the full story on my blog- link in my bio. •
"It felt vulnerable to invite people into a dream that felt naive, silly, and at times wildly unattainable. I only felt okay because I could say, 'but hey, look at that this piece of paper that says I am successful!' I let my diploma and my bulletproof 10-year plan define my worth. And most of all, I let what other people thought of me and what other people viewed as 'success' define me." •
"So many people that I meet say that they are proud or impressed by my confidence to take such a leap, some even stating that they are jealous of my guts to really go for something. But the truth is, I'm scared. I'm unsure of what is in store for me and often don't feel very confident. But I live for the little glimmers of 'oh, THIS is why I am doing this' and I don't regret my decision. I take every little comment about my work and what I'm doing deeply to heart and it fuels me to keep going. Even if I fail, I know that I have permanently released my need for safety, validation, and to appear successful in the eyes of others. I've found that I am successful, even in my nothingness and that I'm the only one that can decide that."