This book is filled with some of the worst times of my life 😢 It's from the last year or so of my time with the NHS as a biomedical scientist.
I often talk about the life changing moment I snapped and told my boss 'I'm leaving and if you don't like it you can kiss my ass'. Literally. What I rarely talk about is all the things that led me to totally losing my shit. All the things that are in this book. A whole frigging book. Because actually, it's really really hard for me to go back to that time 😭
But not only did I did get out, I have helped others do the same,️ I've shown them how. All people who played by rules and were promised a really great life that didn't quite pan out. All people that didn't think they would need to still be working overtime to keep up with the bills. All people crying in their cars before they go in to work because but they feel stuck...I have shown them how I did it, and I helped them do it too. Because that WAS me, I wasn't always so happy 💔
Do you guys ever have bad days? I'm only human, I do & today happens to be one of those days. I remember before I transitioned every day was a bad day & occasionally I'd have one good day every few months. Days of emotional instability, lack of energy or a drive & days I just didn't get out of bed but to let River out. Thankfully those days are gone. I'll only have a bad day every now & again, usually around the time when my biological fertility organs are doing their thing. To get through these days I simply tell myself it's just a bad day, not the start of a bad chapter in life. It's only temporary and time will balance myself back out. It may be a day, or it may be two but all I know is it won't take me to rock bottom. #badday#mentalhealthday#roughstart#worksucks#ftm#femaletomale#transgender#transman#transmasculine#vitaminT#hrt#selfmademan#thisiswhattranslookslike