Something that I've never really talked about on this account is my social anxiety. I had a story not too long ago saying that I couldn't make a youtube channel because of my social anxiety and many of you messaged me saying "no way!". On this account I post my life, I get pretty serious in my captions and yes I do post a lot of bikini pictures, but that doesn't mean my anxieties aren't real. I get anxiety about simple life tasks like talking on the phone, talking to a new person, being alone in public, etc.
One of my biggest fears is that people will find me annoying, I tend to talk a lot when I feel nervous and I like to overshare my life with complete strangers. I already feel like EVERYONE thinks I'm annoying, so when people tell me I am it puts me really far down.
Sometimes there are days when I let my anxieties win and I won't go out, but most of the time I try to push through them no matter how weird I may feel during the time. If I let them win all the time I'd have no friends and no life which is not okay with me. I've always told people it's hard to understand because I'm a extremely social person who is out going, but at the same time my social anxiety will cause panic attacks.
I'm the person who says "you too!" after the usher says "enjoy your movie!". I'm the person who will stutter on words in public because my brain is working too hard to not sound like an idiot. (Please if you see this don't point it out to ANYONE) you have no idea how embarrassing it is to stutter on a word and have someone mock you over it.
DO NOT DO IT!
At the end of the day you have to just remember to take a deep breath and remember that you were being yourself and you tried your best. Your anxieties will have the power to control you, but you can't let them win 🦋💞🌼🌈🔮💐🌸🌻
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