This picture was taken on my last trip to Havasupai in April. I had a buddy snap it on our way out of the canyon as I have done 3 times previously. This picture was different though. I looked at it and immediately hated it. Hated the different body I was looking at. The body with bigger features than I am used to. Bigger thighs, bigger arms, bigger waist, bigger everything. I hated it so much that I said- nah, I am definitely not going to post that.
It's hard to be a person that struggles with body image issues, and I'll be honest, I have all my life. But the truth is, this body carried me and my little guy through this canyon twice while I was pregnant and again 3 months after giving birth, so I guess I'll admit that I was being too critical of myself. Yes our bodies change and become completely different during and after pregnancy, but the gift of life is so very worth every ounce of change. I look at my little human in awe every single day and I know that I wouldn't give up one single pound I gained if it meant I didn't have him in my arms. It may be taking me longer this time (because I am 9 years older😜) to lose the baby weight, but I know I will do it. The truth is, when I stop and think about it, I'm pretty damn proud of what I'm capable of and who I've become as a mother to keep being hung up on the weight thing! So here's a picture of me that I feel proud of today. 🤗💕