Okay guys, i feel like i wanna open up to you all and tell you guys whats going on in my life. Okay so.. Im an only child.. So my whole life ive gotten lots of attention from my parents.. But ive always been a bit lonely. I was that kid growing up that would sit in the corner and color by myself instead of with my friends. Ive never been outgoing or anything. Its always been hard for me to make friends. But middle school was a different story. In 6th grade i was ugly-like super ugly, and because of that i had no friends and was bullied everyday. This past year was shit. 7th grade was horrible and i wasn't ever happy with myself. I got depressed and i skipped school at least three times a month because i hated it. Then some people came into my life- my favorite person in my world.. My gay bestfriend nick. He is the best person i know and i dont ever think our bond will be broken. But a few things happened. I had this friend for four years and we got in a fight. It was probably one of the hardest things ever. A few months ago i met my friend liv (@/sparklykoury) she was a good friend while it lasted. But our friendship became toxic and we got in a fight because i didn't like that she constantly put me down. She would say rude things about me, tell me i was stupid and annoying , and the thing that hurt me most, she told me i was fat. And me being my emotional self i took that hard.. So thats where i am now. I have my first counseling appointment on Monday and i dont know how to feel about it, but i just wanted to tell you guys this. I love you all.