You don't have to care , what others think about you and how to be perfect for them, because if you start beeing like them you'll loose your happyness. And everyone is easy to influence, especially by "friends" or just mates.
If your old and on way to Heaven, you should thought back and smile.
So left what you are just need and start makeing and takeing what you want .
What you want makes you more happy than what you just need.
And what makes you feeling good or happy, you'll smile about if you remember as an old guy .