i think back to this show frequently.. emerald cup 2018 was a HARD show for me on so many levels and really challenged me to my core. i wasn’t myself, didn’t have my vibe. i wasn’t where i had expected to be, but @shaneheugly and i pushed hard for this show in the 17 days we had. i remember standing backstage looking at each and saying there was literally not one other thing we could have done differently.
although this was my worst regional placing of my NPC career, and my only time not winning my class, it was my turning point. for a while i thought that my SLC championship win was my turning point, but no. it was here.
it happened when i was told the following day i would be wasting my time going to nationals and that my coach was just stealing my money. that i was someone who was ruining the [bodybuilding] industry. that i should wait another year to move to a bigger stage. i cried for hours. i don’t cry easily. -
today when my IFBB pro card and pro debut signed contract came in the mail, i thought back to this show. realizing, it was what sparked the flame that grew into a raging fire going into the month of June.
don’t dull your fire. let it burn, rage, power you forward when you want to break down and quit. some say fire burns and destroys, but it can also reveal beauty and strength long hidden.
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