So proud of @thefitnesslioness for bringing her best package to date Arnold Classic weekend. She keeps it real and I love her for that. When your down keep going...you will end up on top🙌
WARNING: this post is brutally honest ⚠️ I like to replace bad memories with good ones. That's part of how I cope, process, and move forward from really traumatic events. This weekend wasn't about a placing for me. It was about facing my fears about this particular weekend. The weekend of the Arnold last year was my lowest point as a human being. My life plummeted to the deepest, darkest place I have ever seen and my actions towards myself reflected that. I was in prep and my old coping mechanisms of drugs, food, or alcohol were not an option.. so I sought out a different way to handle the emotional pain that weekend brought to me. Some marks on my arm and even deeper marks on my heart I managed to make it out of the weekend alive. My rock bottom sprouted a lot of beautiful friendships and experiences for me. I knew if I could make it out of that I could make it out of anything. But fear and anxiety still surrounded the weekend of the Arnold for me. Where I find fear, I know I MUST face it for if I don't that will hinder my opportunity to grow.... so looking at my 2017 competition season I said YUP the Arnold for my kick off show it is!! What was once the worst weekend of my life has now been replaced with the most incredible, high on life weekend I have ever experienced. What was spent last year alone and scared was spent this year with SO much love, support, companionship, and reassurance that what I am doing is making an impact. That weekend taught me of my capabilities and this weekend allowed me to show those capabilities off. I sit here prouder than I've ever been, more motivated than I've ever been, and the most grateful I've ever been. Grateful for all of the love from all of you beautiful people. Grateful for the love and support from my coach, team, friends and family. Grateful for this experience of a lifetime. Most of all.... I am just fucking grateful to be ALIVE and kicking the shit out of my dreams. I can't thank you all enough.