Two months progress update.
It's been a up and down couple of months since I posted my before photo at the end of January.
Initially I was doing really well, eating much better, getting back into more regular exercise. I had lost 3.5kg by end of Feb but then I went on holiday to London and Paris.
Came back having gained 2kg. I have just spent the last week trying to reverse that gain by being super strict with my diet and eating very clean with no treats at all.
On the scale it went well, 2.3kg down (in this after pic I am now 75kg) but mentally not so fun.
Diets are a mind fuck.
I am already pretty much all about the food, so when you put a diet in the mix I turn into an ultra food obsessed person. I don't focus on what I am eating while on the diet - that's easy - it's all berries and apples, steak or chicken or fish and salad or veggies, boiled eggs etc. What I end up doing is constantly daydreaming about all the things I am going to eat, that aren't all healthy and natural, the moment I hit my goal date or weight or my willpower breaks.
I just can't do deprivation, I can't even do the thought of deprivation. Even if I am not actually being deprived or even feeling hungry, just by telling myself I can't have something makes me want it more.
It's brought home a lesson that I have been trying to ignore, it's not about calories in or calories out, it's about what is going on in my head. I am in a constant mental food battle with myself and it's exhausting. I need to reevaluate my headspace if I want to make any real progress #keepingitreal #notgivingup #nourishnotpunish