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Yesterday was my 7 weeks post op. I was trying all day and doing. There were tiny spectaculars AND I was also feeling exactly where I was 7 weeks out. .
It’s so very important to honor honestly where we are at in ANY recovery you are in. Mine is from brain surgery and it’s highs & lows. And I’m so very fortunate to be loved through on all the days- the messiest, the most wonderful, the buying of Wand(a)- (we have a real-ationshio to build). She’s adorable and yet. Day by day with her. Day by day with us. .
Maybe I will never fully be okay. Maybe I will. I can’t look that far ahead. I need company right here. I am here. I’m in the “trying”. I’m in the “doing the best I can” with ugly reality too. I’m some days just breathing my way through. .
No matter how things go, WE do get better. I’ve gotten more vulnerable, better at reaching (and not), known the grace of falling, being flat in the valley, and crawling, asking for help in so many varying ways, and trying so hard. Grace. Shaking fists. Being held. Letting go. Holding on. God has so much patience with me. So do the ones who wrap their arms so tightly around me. So do you with your words. I’m a “flip flopper”. I can hold this. I can’t hold all of this everyday. I can’t. And that’s ok. I have to choose Joy a different way. .
And to anyone who reads these words and needed reminding; Congratulations, you made it here today. You made it. WE made it. I love all of us. .
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