Leaving Freiburg would be hard for me. Maybe even harder than leaving Jakarta, because both are my home now.
Well actually it's hard for me to define home because those feelings about having a home have never been really clear for me.
I am a part of minority in Indonesia because of my ethnic and religion background. I used to have this identity crisis. But funny thing, i finally identified myself for the first time as an Indonesian after i arrived in Germany. I kinda had to, because everyone always ask where i come from. Well, maybe it doesn't seem hard for you if you are a part of the majority and have native looks. Eventhough i was born and raised in Indonesia without speaking my ancestors' language, some people still think that i don't belong there. It's not enough. But hey, i finally got more secured and embraced myself as who i am today and those people can basically just kiss my ass.
But about feeling fully accepted, i guess it is something else. It'd be really nice if i could also define home as where your heart is or where everyone accepts you just the way you are. Unfortunately, that's not really the case for me.
Calling Freiburg as my home is also a different story. I came here all by myself. And if you ask me whether i want to stay here or go back to Indonesia later, i still can't give you a yes or no for that question. Well, i used to say i wanna go back for sure though. Making friends with germans was probably the biggest challenge for me. In Indonesia, we could call each other friends after just one conversation. Like some of them would even drive you around the city eventhough you just met them. It's not like that here. But i overcame that problems years ago. The thing is.. despite all of my awesome friends here, i still don't feel fully accepted here, because you know, in the end i am still a foreigner anyway. But now i do can imagine myself spending my life for a long time here though.
Anyway, i'm looking forward to german elections' results. Don't forget to go to the election, guys! Your voice counts and choose wisely! Don't choose AfD. Like, seriously. #vivalafreiburg #freiburg