This is one of my tees I designed last week. Fear is something I've been struggling with all year. And not just a little here and there, but an all-consuming demon from hell that makes me feel as if I'm completely drowning. Nothing is off limits. My health, marriage, children, business, relationships...every part of my life has an unknown that morphs into unbearable fear.
But I'm learning to fight back. I'm still a work in progress. I still have days where I have to fall to pieces in my husband's arms. There's days where every time I try and share my fears and anxieties with someone my eyes begin to burn and swell up with tears.
Today though, I got fed up. This mess is ruining my life. So I've started writing down prayers for everything I'm worried about. I've put scriptures on my phone's homepage. Even my husband has made me promise to call him for prayer when things seem too much. I'm being proactive. I have a battle plan ready. I'm not allowing the lies that stem from fear to consume me nor control me any more.
I hope that if you're dealing with fears that are suffocating and draining the life out of you-you're not alone. I get it. The panic attacks that come from no where. The trembling and the uncontrollable tears. The anger at a situation you can't control. But realize this, the hopelessness we feel in these situations is a lie. We are NOT without a hope. We have fortress to run to and a redeemer to save us. But we must be battle ready. We must prep before the rains come. Call it out, mama. Tell the fear it no longer owns you. #fearisaliar