When I was growing up, I used to be somebody. We were all in somebody training in those days. You become somebody, and then you tell everybody who you are. You hand out business cards, and you say, “How do you do? I am Somebody, and I do such and such.” Everybody is very important and special, and each person assesses how much more important they are than everybody else. We were all in that training.
I became somebody because my parents wanted me to be special, and my educators wanted me to be special, and they trained me how to do that. It’s called ego structuring. I really made it. I was really somebody. My parents were proud of me. I could look in their eyes and see pride and appreciation. That part was gratifying.
The only problem was, inside I felt lousy. I felt like somehow I should be happy. But I wasn’t. I thought, “Well, happiness isn’t everything, is it? As long as I am what everyone wants me to be, isn’t that enough?”But it wasn’t, and I felt very weird.
Polishing the Mirror - Ram Dass
I am feeling blessed to be working on something I’m passionate about. I don’t know what lies ahead, it could all be over in a month or even next week. Today I’m grateful because I’m in love with what I’m doing for living now and I don’t take it for granted. Things are happening, I have my first alignment workshop coming up next week, I’m team teaching a donation class in memory of my dear friend Bri, I started teaching a class at another great local studio and I’m hoping to launch the website next week.
Thank you to my loving and supportive community, you have all in some way encouraged me to push forward and see where this path goes #sangha #yoga #yogaworkshop #yogaclass #themomentisnow #live #actnow #love #comunity #oaklandyoga #oaklandyoga #vita #vitaoakland #hotspotyogaoakland #grateful #blessed #yogateacher #vinyasa #vinyasaflow #vinyasateacher #bayareayoga #eastbayyoga #now #petelongworthphotography @petelongworth