#TBT to something I wrote just days out from #USAs2014 ... As I put one foot in front of the other, staring down at the clock (slowly) ticking away on this revolving stair machine, I start to think....This has got to be THEE longest love affair I've ever had. 14 years and counting.
Then my thoughts start to wonder off.........
I've experienced some amazing love affairs in my short life thus far, but I guess I've never known true love.
To me, this is true love. The gym. The weights. The cardio equipment. The relationship it has forced me to have with MYSELF. It's all there. But, understand, it's not true love because it is amazing all the time. You see, it never changes face. What it says is what it means. 100lbs will always be 100lbs. It might feel heavier to ME on some days but that's not it's fault, It's mine.
This place lifts me up and breaks me down. Breaks me down to the point of wanting to walk away! Some days I can't stand to look at it one more time.
The thought of having to "do it" makes me sick. But, no matter how I'm feeling at the moment - that's just it - it's MY feelings. MY perspective. MY emotional weakness. My decision to remain faithful or fall prey to temporary satisfaction.
In the end, LOVE or HATE; it's doing it's job. Playing the role in my life that it's supposed to. Nothing more. Nothing less. Challenging me to become a better version of myself every single day.
There by my side through the highs and the lows. Never placing judgment and ready to be 100lbs when I'm ready to pick it up.
No love is perfect. And I wouldn't want it to be if the RESULTS aren't like these. If you're willing to put your all into something and push through - there will always be sunshine after the rain. Just remember to always take responsibility for your own feelings. Never change face.