As I near my birthday, I thought back to my 20s and how they compared to my 30s thus far. .
Some of you may say, "Damn! She was pudgy in the day!" or others may think, "You were never fat....you look fine." Well, I can tell you I wasn't fine. That girl on the left was in great shape (sub 9 min 1.5 mile run, taking 1st in a half ironman, knocking out 200 push-ups and pull-ups a day) but I was SO unhealthy! Why? Because not only did I fuel my body terribly, but inside, I hated who I had become. I was not happy with my appearance. I would binge eat or not eat the whole day. I would take diuretics in hopes to slim down. I didn't understand why I couldn't be thin if I was killing it in the gym. Well, if only you could've seen how much I drank....booze that is. Alcohol was what I used to numb my pain. It was a coping mechanism. It made me forget about all the bullshit I was dealing with in life for the short time. However, it caused way more problems for me AND was packing on the pounds. I hated my life and who I was becoming but instead of doing something about it, I just continued in a downward spiral. Finally one day, I woke up and said enough is enough. .
Now it didn't happen overnight. It took years to fix all the problems I had. I cut out majority of my drinking, I educated myself on proper eating and how to take care of my body. I cut out a ton of people in my life and surrounded myself with the few positive people who loved me for me and didn't mask my light but made it brighter. I tried different methods of training to see what I liked best and what worked for me. I finally started loving myself again and taking care of my body...and gradually it started to show. Now I find myself in my 30s. I'm the healthiest I've ever been. I'm in a healthy relationship. I eat healthy and have a great relationship with food (so great in fact, that I can do a bikini comp!). Working out is now how I destress. I may have a drink or two socially but I don't feel like I need it anymore to cope with my life or to "make me more fun". I'm already a blast in a glass, I don't need no booze to tell me that 😂🍷💁🏻 Continued ⬇️⬇️⬇️