UPDATE *** We all know the pressure to #breastfeed is intense. Everywhere I turn it feels like I'm reminded of the slogan
#breastisbest It can seriously impact your #mentalhealth I know it has mine - especially my second time around.
#breastfeeding has not come easy for me: not with my son, not with my daughter. It's a process. It's a process I'm choosing to be done with. Yes I said done with. I think I'm undergoing my #transformation With Huston only 17 days away from turning #10monthsold I am choosing to wean her. Why??? Simply because it's my #choice You may agree with it or not, like it or not, but respecting my choice is what you ought to do.
I've had a difficult time producing enough milk throughout my #postpartum journey. I've taken supplements, made dietary changes, increased water intake. I've also cried. But you don't see the tears. Unfortunately you don't see a lot of moms tears. You don't see them because too often moms are pressured into feeling guilty for choosing formula. I'm choosing to supplement with formula more & more and less & less with breast. It hasn't been easy though. My daughter didn't want anything to do with a bottle of formula at first. It made me feel defeated. What was I going to do when I left her with dad. Thankfully, It's no longer a struggle, but to get to this stage I did more than worry. I worried when I knew my machines (aka breasts) were not producing enough milk. I watched my daughter suck & suck and nothing. Was I starving her.
This may sound crazy but it's as if my right breast completely stopped working. No engorgement, no sensation, nothing... My left breast takes on full responsibility. Sounds strange I know.
After a couple months of wanting to be done with breastfeeding, but continued to stick with it, I'm now working towards being done. Right now she mostly breastfeeds at night. Which I'm trying to wean her of, but with teething I feel bad.
I've had my doubts, my fears, and worries if this will in anyway impact her negatively. Will this create a doorway for future eating disorders (with my history you can understand my concern.) I #trust this is best. This is what's best for the both of us!!