It was the kind of situation you find yourself experiencing for the first time. And I wasn't even angry, but what bothered me most was that I couldn't and can't help. I tried to think of ways, but there wasn't. Especially when in return it would backfire if I tried.
To help and love are really the two ways you invest your life, and to see me being there, unable to help made me sad, and how I will have to live with/inside that situation at least for a while. And so I am learning that sometimes there is really nothing you can do, and that's okay.