For those of you who do not know, I am only 18. While senior year of high school should be spent making memories with friends, I've spent my weekends more often that not this way; laying down, my bucket in hand, heating devices, and a show on as some form of distraction from what is going on. Tonight is one of those nights. On a Friday I should be spending with friends, I am stuck in bed in terrible pain and just waiting to get sick. This week has been really tough, I have hardly slept and my slow motility has caused me to be up in the middle of the night throwing up what my stomach simply cannot process. I've been in constant pain and I've been dizzier than ever. The burning in my stomach has only gotten worse as I feel new ulcers being formed. In these times, I really struggle as one might guess. How can I fight this when my body doesn't have the strength to stand up? I truly do not know this answer, and you know I probably never will. The only thing that I and anyone in my situation can do is to wake up and do exactly what your body needs you to do that day, and then you do it all again the next day. Being a teenager with a chronic illness has made me grow up so much faster than I would've, and probably should've. Instead of making spontaneous plans and staying out until 2 am, I am constantly planning where I'll be, what I will be doing as well as how to get home in case of emergencies, what food I should bring that might not hurt my stomach as much, etc. That's not something someone my age should have to worry about, and right now I am frustrated as I possibly can be that these are my Friday nights, but I just have to continue to remember that this will get better even if every doctor as shown little hope. It may never change, but I will just have to grow stronger.