Exactly why do I need to turn my ears to God’s voice; why do I need to pay attention to His words in the Bible? Does it gain me anything if I keep His commands, words in my heart and to fixate myself on God? .
Yes; We need to. God demands our attention and ears turn to Him so that when we hear Him, we are deeply convicted and filled with great compassion. Only then we can keep it deep in our hearts because that moment was intimate with the Sovereign Lord, it was the reflection of God’s faithfulness call. When we meditate daily on His word in reminder of His faithfulness only then spiritually we are healthy and active; sensitive to the Holy spirit. Finally, only when we do all this, in trials and tribulations we can guard our hearts in whatever we do, and do it not to self-glorify but God, to magnify Him. Whatever that flows out of this heart which is guarded by God’s faithfulness and love, is to love others as you love God.
Wait no longer, turn back to God and ask the Lord for forgiveness. It starts by paying attention to Him and His voice.