what's a bad habit you have? -
When I close my eyes lately, I can see the monsters of my past maliciously grinning at me. I did something terrible in my past without thinking about the consequences that may ensue. I was so stupid, foolish and reckless for doing such act. I didn’t think twice. And right now, those monsters are haunting me no matter how hard I try to run away from them. There comes a time that they almost kept their paces with me. I am afraid. Horribly. I’m hideously in fear that that fiendish and unforgivable action of mine would ruin everything—my family, my friends and the way they look at me. I was so stupid. I couldn’t do anything about it. Sorry would no longer be sufficed. The damage has been done. Right now, I was filled with regrets that I will carry for the rest of my life. I was terrified of hearing obscenity and other profane language if in case they realized that I was not the person they thought I was. I couldn’t tell it to anybody. I couldn’t. It would destroy me. All I could do is to put them into words until somehow I felt better; until I felt somehow I was able to escape the monsters (for the meantime, at least). All I can cling into right now are prayers that despite my stupid action, everything will turn out fine.