I just want friends, parties, alcohol, dates, teddy-bears, sex, cigarettes, tattoos, coffee, food without calories and to be beautiful. To be perfect for myself... Is it too much?
One of these days when everything was +- okay... New month - new possibilities. I really need to lose this last 5~6kgs. I believe I can do it... I think... 27 days. Life, give me some motivation and one last chance please... My eating behaviors are not so good... My anxiety and depression hits me very hard everyday too but I'm trying to be under control. I haven't got my period since 2 months. My mom is angry because I don't want to go to the doctor but I'm worried about this. Battle with self harm is going brilliant too! I'm clean since few weeks 🌹
Everything will be okay someday, right?
I should buy a new pair of black skinny jeans or leggings because mine are too big for me now. I will go shopping in next week maybe... I want a new cute short dress (maybe black, red or yellow one) and big black blouse (I prefer clothes from @deadeyesapparel, @staycoldapparel, @individualism_clothing or maybe @blackaltarapparel) too but I don't know if I should wear clothes like that... 🐷🐼