While I'm living my best life now, not enough people in the trans community talk about post surgery depression. Going through a surgery takes time to adjust and I remember being very disconnected with who I was after. I had set expectations that immedietly after top surgery I would be the happiest I'd ever been and feeling dissociative and depressed took me by surprise. Like any other life change, surgery, even good ones can take time to get use to. Particularly being physically restricted was difficult for me. I really wish I had done more research before surgery just to prepare me. Still, I'd do it a million times over and I'm in love with how my chest looks!