Ayyyy she made it to the gym 👋🏼 okay but seriously, time to be a little honest.
I've been struggling *a lot* over the past few days (hence the MIA), and I know I say it a lot so I thought it best I just explain 😅
I suffer with something called Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Not many ppl know what it is so let me ramble 🤗
You wouldn't guess looking at me cos I cover my symptoms fairly well as it's hard to understand. Being asked "what's up?" and answering "I'm tired" doesn't quite cut it unfortunately 😂.
But CFS isnt any old tired my friends, I wish it bloody was though.
To explain a little more, it's basically exhaustion to the point of not being able to think/move/function/recover after everyday tasks (long periods of standing, walking, social events, gym). Symptoms vary, some days it's fine and others it's not. Sometimes its so intense I get horrible muscle/joint pain and have to stay in bed. Or my brain is so frazzled I can't even write an Insta caption (legit 😅 or anything that uses more than 1 brain cell).
When I have lengthy bad patches it takes AGES to recover from things (trip to London = 3 days in bed 😬).
I'm not gonna lie, it's really really shit. And frustrating. I can't convey the feelings of uselessness that comes with it, honestly. Being physically exhausted is horrible, but not being able to do the things you plan or want to do is worse.
Ive put off talking about it on here cos it's hard to explain. But I heard the babes @kashwhiteley and @imrececen discuss their similar issues recently which was weirdly comforting and made me realise (obviously, duh, emma 😅) I'm not alone.
Everyone everywhere has something they're dealing with. I forget this all time time and then feel like a failure. But you're not alone and you're not a failure, whatever your problem may be.
Also I felt it weird that I hadn't been open about such a big part of my life on here, so just wanted to throw it out there. Into the abyss of insta lmao 🤗 oh and I was overdue a stupidly long instagram caption let's face it.. so here we are 😂💞