Gorgeous lunchtime walk today... just an amble as my poor feet are still sore from saturday’s 20 miler... it was wonderfully peaceful just the birds chirping, the river running and the insects buzzing... I wished I had a chair so I could just sit, be still and take it all in... . I’m feeling a bit better today, thank you all for your lovely messages of love and support, it helps, if only for reassurance that i’m doing the best I can... I can’t help but wear my heart on my sleeve... I’ve learnt after years of bottling everything up and putting on a brave face that that doesn’t work... I know it must be tough to read sometimes but it’s cathartic for me... and well, I find putting it out there for all to read quite liberating too... . I’ve got news! Big news for me!! I’m trying not getting too excited but this weekend I might actually get Friday and Saturday night off... no children (it’s been so long it’s going to feel weird again but I’m not going to complain...) I know I should make great plans but the best bit will be waking up and being able to go back to sleep... until I get a wet nose nudge my arm to remind me haven’t yet taken him for a walk... so I’m keeping positive and working towards that... fingers and toes crossed that I can get 48hrs to just be me... the reality is I have a Ball on Friday night and I’ll be nursing the mother of all hangovers on Saturday... but who cares!! 😝 . . . .